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Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. Brilliantly Broken is an intense exploration of the human spirit, a story of raw vulnerability and the courage it takes to face your demons, no matter how dark they may be. In Brilliantly Broken, Liam is a man teetering on the edge of self-acceptance, haunted by the shadows he has long tried to escape. Drawn to Limbo, an exclusive club in Washington, D.C., he steps into a world where inhibitions fade and the darkest desires come alive. In this sensual, red-lit space, where boundaries are meant to be crossed, Liam is forced to confront the demons he's buried deep inside. As he navigates the labyrinth of forbidden pleasure and emotional chaos, he realizes that freedom doesn't come from hiding his darkness-it comes from embracing it. Only by confronting his deepest fears and flaws can he hope to find the light beyond the shadows. This is not a journey of redemption, but one of revelation-of what it means to be unapologetically broken, and beautifully whole. Shipping may be from multiple locations in the US or from the UK, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. The Lonely Road is a harrowing descent into the uncharted depths of the human psyche, where denial, trauma, and repressed darkness collide. Lance is a young man haunted by a past he can't face and choices he doesn't understand. After an impulsive act spirals his life into chaos, he finds himself entangled in a distorted reality, unable to distinguish friend from foe or even himself from his inner demons. As his mind unravels, he's forced to confront the pieces of himself he's long kept hidden-the anger, shame, and pain that have festered in silence for years. But darkness has a way of taking control when it's ignored, morphing into something relentless and unforgiving. In his journey through mental isolation and fractured memories, Lance must either learn to let his darkness breathe, to acknowledge it and seek balance, or risk being entirely consumed by it. In a world that encourages us to "cope through it," The Lonely Road challenges that notion, urging readers to face the shadows that lurk within, to give their darkness a voice. Because, as Lance discovers, when we deny the parts of ourselves we fear the most, they're bound to surface-and the consequences can be deadly. Shipping may be from multiple locations in the US or from the UK, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. Some stories aren't just written-they are lived. Fading Into Silence: Official Companion Book is an intimate, unfiltered exploration of the raw emotions, real-life experiences, and deeply personal struggles that shaped the novel Fading Into Silence.In this deeply introspective companion book, Nicholas Michael Matiz unravels the chaos of first love, the suffocating grip of grief, and the haunting echoes of family loyalty gone cold. This book is more than a behind-the-scenes look at a novel. It is an autopsy of love and loss, a confession of pain and longing, and an unflinching testament to the scars we carry. Plus, it includes (exclusive to this paperback edition) entries from Clay's journal, a note from Jace's mother, and a three-chapter excerpt from Matiz's upcoming novel, Out of the Closet; which releases on March 14th, 2025.When love, family, and identity begin to fade, do you let yourself disappear with them? Or do you walk away and find your own silence? Shipping may be from multiple locations in the US or from the UK, depending on stock availability.

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Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. All For Him takes readers on an intimate journey through the mind of a man falling in love later in life, when the stakes feel higher, and the emotions, rawer. Talon Montgomery has lived long enough to know the patterns of his life-he's a middle-aged writer with moderate success, a career built on discipline, and a heart carefully guarded. But when he meets Elliot Carrington, a young man still navigating the shifting terrain of his own identity, Talon's carefully constructed world begins to unravel. Told through Talon's deeply personal internal monologue, this novel explores love in all its messy, unfiltered glory-where vulnerability and fear collide, and where passion can still bloom despite age, experience, or expectation. As Talon and Elliot's relationship deepens, Talon must confront his own insecurities, desires, and the parts of himself he's long kept hidden. In this emotional, poignant story of self-discovery, All For Him paints a rare and honest portrait of love, one that proves it's never too late to open your heart. Shipping may be from multiple locations in the US or from the UK, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. The Originals is a collection that brings you into the mind of a young writer just beginning to find his voice. Written during his high school years, these stories are raw and untouched, full of the creative energy and unfiltered emotion of a teenager exploring the power of words. This collection spans a range of genres and ideas-from moments of introspection to wild adventures-capturing the intensity and boundless imagination of youth. Included in this collection is a never-before-seen version of All For Him (releasing July 2025), originally titled Long After Dawn. This early draft is a stark contrast to what the story eventually became, offering a rare glimpse into its evolution and the writer's changing perspective over time. Shipping may be from multiple locations in the US or from the UK, depending on stock availability.

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Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. Some connections defy distance, time, and practical impossibility.When Kai, a Hawaiian surf instructor with deep island roots, meets Jordan, a mainland architect on vacation, neither expects the profound connection that forms over just seven days. Their brief time together reveals a rare understanding that transcends their different worlds-but when Jordan's vacation ends, reality intrudes. With careers and lives anchored to opposite shores, they part ways believing some stories aren't meant to continue.Five years later, Jordan unexpectedly returns to the same Hawaiian beach for a professional project. The attraction between them reignites immediately, but the fundamental challenges remain: Jordan's career flourishes in urban environments, while Kai's life is intrinsically woven into the island's culture and community.As they navigate this unexpected reunion, both must confront difficult questions: Is love enough to bridge such different worlds? What sacrifices are worth making for connection? And can a foundation built in just seven days support a lifetime together?From breathtaking sunrise views atop Mauna Kea to the hidden beaches of Oahu's North Shore, from architectural projects honoring indigenous design to a surf therapy program transforming young lives, their journey unfolds against Hawaii's stunning backdrop. But when a powerful storm forces them to confront their deepest fears and desires, Kai and Jordan must decide whether to surrender to practical impossibilities or fight for a future neither had imagined possible.Spanning seven years of separation and reunion, sacrifice and growth, Love After Friday is a moving exploration of how we build homes in people as well as places, and how sometimes the most unlikely connections prove the most enduring-if we have the courage to follow where they lead. Shipping may be from our UK warehouse or from our Australian or US warehouses, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. What if you weren't real? What if everything you thought, every choice you made, every breath you took-was never truly yours?In the dense solitude of an Oregon forest, a man awakens with no memory of how he got there. Beside him lies a worn leather journal, filled with pages of a story he doesn't remember writing. A story of gods and men, of cosmic renewal and existential destruction. A story that seems to know him better than he knows himself.As he reads, the lines between reality and fiction begin to blur. The pages describe impossible events, yet he recalls them like memories-his own, or someone else's. The deeper he delves, the more the world unravels around him, shifting and distorting, bending to the will of something unseen.Then, a terrifying revelation: he is not the writer. He is the story.Trapped in a narrative he cannot control, haunted by words that rewrite themselves, he is pursued by a force that lurks between the pages-watching, waiting, writing. His past is ink. His future is already decided. And the ending? It has been written.And yet, the book turns another page.A chilling descent into the fragility of self and the horror of reality itself, this novel is a labyrinth of existential dread, a waking nightmare where the act of reading becomes a trap and the writer is merely another character in the hands of something greater. Shipping may be from our UK warehouse or from our Australian or US warehouses, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. From foster care to homelessness, from trauma to triumph-a raw, unflinching memoir of survival against impossible odds.Nicholas Michael Matiz was supposed to disappear. The system designed to protect him failed at every turn. Bounced between an abusive father and an addicted mother, thrust into foster homes where new horrors awaited, and ultimately abandoned to navigate the streets alone, his story should have ended in statistics-another broken child swallowed by drugs, prison, or an early grave.It didn't.Hallow is not just another trauma memoir. It's a visceral journey through the darkest corners of childhood abuse, sexual violence, institutional neglect, and the brutal reality of youth homelessness. Matiz writes with unflinching honesty about being raped by a stepbrother at nine years old, about sleeping in cars and shelter beds, about the soul-crushing weight of having nowhere to call home and no one who gives a damn if you live or die.But this isn't poverty porn or misery tourism. This is the story of a young man who refused to let his abusers have the final word on who he would become.With prose that cuts like broken glass and moments of unexpected beauty amid the wreckage, Matiz documents his fight not just for survival but for dignity, connection, and purpose. From producing underground films in youth shelters to falling in love in rain-soaked park benches, from the gutting betrayal of supposed family to finding chosen family in the most unlikely places-this memoir captures both the savage reality of trauma and the stubborn persistence of hope.Matiz doesn't offer easy answers or inspirational platitudes. He doesn't pretend the damage isn't real or that healing follows a tidy arc. Instead, he presents his truth with all its jagged edges intact: sometimes you have to lose everything-repeatedly-before you can build something that can't be taken away.Raw, gritty, and ultimately defiant, Hallow challenges readers to bear witness to experiences most would rather ignore, while offering testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the transformative power of telling your own story-on your own terms. Shipping may be from our UK warehouse or from our Australian or US warehouses, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. In the shadowed corners of literary Annapolis, a killer is transforming murder into art.When the body of a young bartender is discovered in the prestigious Hamilton Grand Hotel-artfully arranged in a pose mirroring a scene from bestselling author Jonathan Cain's dark psychological thriller-Detective Elliot Warren finds himself drawn into a labyrinth of literary clues and calculated misdirection.As the body count rises, each victim positioned with the same meticulous care, Warren uncovers disturbing connections between Cain and the murdered men. But the investigation takes an unexpected turn when Adrian Locke-a provocative artist with her own fascination for the boundaries between beauty and violence-enters Cain's life.What begins as a manhunt for a serial killer evolves into something far more complex: a psychological chess match between detective and suspects, where evidence itself becomes a form of artistic expression, and the line between hunter and prey blurs beyond recognition.When Warren himself disappears while pursuing a lead, his partner Detective Sophia Reyes must navigate a web of manipulated evidence, hidden connections, and elaborate performances to uncover the truth-before she becomes the next subject in a killer's masterpiece.Suspense of Disbelief is a sophisticated psychological thriller that explores the darkest intersections of creativity and violence, challenging readers to question where art ends and monstrosity begins. With intricate plotting, complex psychological portraits, and a relentless pursuit of uncomfortable truths, this novel will captivate fans of Gillian Flynn, Thomas Harris, and Tana French.Some stories are written in blood. Some performances end in death. And some art is worth killing for. Shipping may be from our UK warehouse or from our Australian or US warehouses, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. Meet Elias Campbell: bookstore clerk by day, self-destructive sex addict by night, and master of the disappearing act in all situations. He's perfected the art of being everywhere and nowhere-a transparent "ghost boy" who exists only to be filled temporarily by strangers' desires while his authentic self remains locked in the metaphorical basement, collecting dust with his abandoned poetry and dreams.Sex isn't about pleasure for Elias; it's about erasure. Each anonymous hookup, each line of cocaine, each morning-after escape is another brick in the wall between his public performance and his hidden truth. It's working perfectly until a Sunday dinner with his religious mother accidentally cracks his carefully constructed nothingness, forcing him to consider the unthinkable: what if disappearing isn't actually living?Cue the messiest recovery journey since your last attempt at assembling IKEA furniture without instructions. With his ride-or-die friend Jamie serving tough love with a side of sarcasm, a therapist who refuses to buy his bullshit, and Ryan-a Hawaiian mythology PhD student whose dimple might be worth staying sober for-Elias stumbles toward a self he barely recognizes."Pulling Out" isn't your typical redemption narrative with convenient rock bottoms and Instagram-worthy breakthroughs. There's no magical rehab montage or perfect healing. Instead, it's a brutally honest, occasionally funny, and surprisingly tender exploration of what happens when a gay man raised on shame tries to transform sex from weapon back to connection, one excruciatingly present day at a time.Bold, unflinching, and refreshingly bullshit-free, this novel goes where most addiction stories fear to tread-into the specific minefield of sex addiction in gay communities, where the same apps that facilitated destruction might sit on the phones of potential partners, and where sobriety means learning to navigate intimacy without the familiar buffer of being absolutely high out of your mind.Recovery isn't pretty, but as Elias discovers, it might be worth it if it means trading ghost stories for something real. Shipping may be from our UK warehouse or from our Australian or US warehouses, depending on stock availability.

Paperback. Condition: new. Paperback. When Jared Sinclair steps off the bus from Ohio into Manhattan's East Village, he carries nothing but ambition and innocence. His coveted media internship promises the future he's always dreamed of-until a chance encounter with the magnetic, dangerous Liam Draven pulls him into a world he never imagined.After witnessing Liam's darker reality, Jared finds himself irresistibly drawn to this charismatic stranger. But their burgeoning relationship takes a devastating turn when a violent confrontation in a nightclub bathroom leaves a man dead and Jared facing murder charges. As evidence mounts against him, Jared discovers his internship placement was no coincidence-and his family has been under surveillance by a powerful criminal organization for decades.Forced underground with Liam and a makeshift family of survivors, Jared uncovers a web of corruption reaching from the NYPD to the district attorney's office. Detective Marcia Delaney, the lead investigator on his case, serves as the nexus between law enforcement and the criminal underworld, manipulating evidence and witnesses to secure Jared's conviction.To clear his name, Jared must become what he once feared-someone capable of deception, manipulation, and calculated risk. As the roles of predator and prey begin to blur, he orchestrates a dangerous counter-investigation, wearing wires to record both criminal conspirators and corrupt police. But each compromise and moral gray area reshapes him, raising the question: how much of his former self can he preserve while fighting enemies who recognize no ethical boundaries?"Nightlife" is a taut psychological thriller about transformation under pressure, the fluid nature of identity, and the thin line between necessary adaptation and fundamental corruption. In the shadows of New York City's glittering facade, innocence becomes a liability, trust is a calculated risk, and the difference between hunter and hunted shifts with each revelation. Shipping may be from our UK warehouse or from our Australian or US warehouses, depending on stock availability.