Description
This anthology of poems was written by the author throughout his adult life.
Many were found in his flat after his death scribbled on pieces of paper, written in diaries or typewritten. Others had been handed to family members from time to time. There are seven different categories. The poems inevitably reflect the author's experiences as a person with chronic bipolar disorder, as well as his views on religion having studied Theology for many years. He was always questioning and never quite deciding to be loyal to any particular church, although he did see himself as a committed Christian.
His observations of life could be considered quite controversial, sometimes apparently quite flippant while on closer scrutiny deeply serious. He also writes with some humour about his relationships with the opposite sex and members of his family. Included in the anthology is a section loosely described as "songs". Only the one bearing the title of this book was ever put to music and performed by him as a song but his intention had always been to break into song writing."If only I was a better guitarist"
The intention in publishing this book is to pay tribute to his memory as a complete human being, with a big personality and a heart to match who had a message he wanted to give but unfortunately could not succeed in doing this during his life time. At the same time, if this book can help to highlight the plight of the mentally ill and the proceeds serve to contribute in some way to financing further research into mental health, it will have been a worthwhile exercise.
About the Author
David Alexander Edward Murdoch was born in Aberdeen Maternity Hospital on 21st January1965, the eldest of three children. He has two sisters. His parents divorced in 1984. Always a mischievous little boy, he was academically bright, good at sports and music. Throughout his childhood, he was full of enthusiasm and eager to excel at anything he tried. David attended schools in Stranraer, Ayr, Bucksburn, Dyce, Cults, Westhill and Ellon. He could claim to be a true Aberdonian however having spent all his adult life living in the City.
David suffered a period of depression at age 14 followed later by hypomania as a teenager and was diagnosed with manic depression at the age of twenty in 1986. The illness dominated his life and he struggled to achieve anything he was proud of. He did not respond positively to any of the drugs on offer and had difficulty accepting that he had an illness. He was admitted to hospital usually compulsorily all too frequently, until his tragic death in Aberdeen on 23rd November 2008.
As a boy and a young man he loved playing golf, tennis and football. He also enjoyed art, music and drama. He directed, co-produced and acted in "Macbeth" while at University. He also acted in plays such as "Much Ado About Nothing" and "The Importance of Being Ernest" (playing Lady Bracknell).
"My Philosophy is to find the most relevant and fascinating question and revel in that...
Answers are two a penny and seldom right but you cant fault a question.
Life after death? Whats the point in worrying about it?
God? No-one's ever going to know.
Where do we come from?
This is the most important question of all
Its the one thing we all have in common,
regardless of religion and one thing it is possible to prove.
Its as if a mathematician had made a doubtful assumption in calculating the dimensions
of a circle in early times and the whole world were bouncing around on cars with square wheels.
I say, forget about the ethereal beings and ancient theories about apes?Our origin is still very much a mystery"
