J Lei D

Raised in rural Australia by my Papua New Guinean mother and Australian father, from the very beginning, I was different. Born with white skin, blue eyes and dark hair, I could always blend in with the crowd of my predominantly white community, yet my inner landscape was very much the design of my nature loving, no shoes, no nonsense mother.

I do not fit a mould of any kind. Not even the date, marriage, mortgage and motherhood sequence of events is an appropriate cycle of change for me. I simply cannot help but stray far from the norm. I live on the outside of the conventional, and although I am disciplined, hardworking and sometimes uptight, I still find myself drifting freely in the world of rules and seek to break them.

My first self-published book, 'Words for Wild Women: Root to Crown Revelations' is an extension of my mixed-bag stream of consciousness. The text is not written, nor is it presented, in a conventional literary form. It's simply not my style. As an English teacher, the laws of literature are just another framework that can be altered, poked and pinched to reshape the rules.

From the spiritual teachings of my mother, friends and writers, I now find myself straying further and further away from the laws of this land we live in and instead, have chosen to loosen my grip on reality and surrender to the superpower of my soul.

Every lesson is learned in the letting go and never the holding on. As someone who has bounced continuously between the realms of what is right, what is wrong, to what is good, and what is bad, I see now, none of it matters. We are all mere mortals, tasked with the duty to compete with and overcome the lanes that lead us, to create our own.

The evolution of my souls duty to the self and to society, began when I stopped talking and started listening. Silencing the conformities of the common community, I meditated and listened to my inner landscape; to a loving mother.

I wrote Words for Wild Women to encourage the sound of the soul to speak through the controls we place on our progress. I wish for women to surrender to the healing properties in the ether that allows our instinctual, wild, uninhibited hearts to strive for innovation.

I found freedom in my connection to the grandest gift of all, love. Self love.

I chose to free myself from all lanes belonging to others, I let go to live in the creation of the lane I make. Yes, all lanes include others, however, I am selective of the lanes I link to.

The path of living in my own lane has been challenging and at times painful. Sharing my revelations along this long and at times, treacherous road, I hope to lighten the load for the weird and wonderful, who too know, they do not fit, nor follow. I wish for women to understand this need to go up instead of right, comes from a deeper awareness, driven by the souls knowledge of itself. In a world of rules and restrictions, the soul still recognises itself as free.

Tuning in to a higher frequency is a wonderful place to be.