Danny O'Neil Abbott

When Sonny first wrote I Cried You Didn’t Listen, and subsequently Consequence, I never 'wanted' to believe. I told myself that he was simply 'dramatizing' the situations. This was particularly true after I had read I Cried You Didn’t Listen. I don’t think it was so much as being far from the truth as it was that I did not want to believe that my brother had suffered the 'unbelievable & inhuman' indignity’s that he related in his book; nor, that he had perpetrated similar indignities upon others, either, whom he perceived had wronged him or simply in 'self-preservation.'

With knowledge, age, wisdom and experience I have come to know that what my brother has written is not only true but, maybe even 'less' than the truth. Not because it is false, but because the truth is more than most humans can bear to hear about their very own nature. I, in my own cloistered and protected world, do not want to know what lies in the 'darkness'; inside or outside. I prefer that no one turn the 'lights' on; for I am totally convinced the horror of what I will actually see will, by far, outstrip my most vivid imaginations of what is there. I also fear and know when the lights go on; I will see myself, in a mirror, as I really am.

I certainly am in denial; however, I might always remain of that persuasion, to the death. This is because I never want to believe that my brother actually suffered such indignities and was forced by the system to act so violently toward others. Most of all, I never want to admit to my part in that system, or let it be seen by others, to my shame. I prefer to point to the sins and secrets of others in order to distract from myself, my family and my friends. I simply have never been caught; and I sincerely hope I never will.

I am thankful for the vivid news stories, prisons, jails, mental institutions, cartels and corrupt governments which draw attention away from me; and to which I can, with confidence, point a 'finger of guilt' or 'throw a stone'. Such opportunity for 'condemnation' gives me a 'soapbox pedestal' upon which I can and do, falsely; lift myself; my life behavior and thoughts; above what is the absolute truth concerning my own sin. I can look down, while the 'ignorant' look up.

When should a child be ‘exposed’ to the absolute truth of our (mans) continuing inhumanity? Should we withhold the truth and hope that our children will never come near that ‘human darkness’ let alone be drawn into it, either willingly or unwillingly? Should we ‘spare them’ as long as possible, out of misguided compassion, hoping beyond hope that they pass through this life never ‘suffering’ the discovery that the real world (including you) is not really what they were led to believe? Is it better to ‘live the lie’; by sticking our heads in the sand; or risk the Burning Light of the Truth?

If there be a 'Highest Power', it is I, you and our children who need it even more-so than my brother; for he has been exposed; albeit, in a horrific and tragic way, to Truths Light. It is now my brother’s desire and purpose to awaken young adults and children in as 'gentle' a way as possible; in the Hope that they can avoid the tragic consequences of believing the lie a minute more than necessary.

You can consider the questions above and make a decision to read and/or allow others to read the books Sonny has written containing the true account of his Awakening. The gain will be invaluable insight into humanity and your consideration of future behavior you might take or want your children to take. Even more important; perhaps that “Pedestal”, I spoke of earlier, can be dismantled slowly before it comes crashing down. - Danny Abbott