As a former athlete unable to express himself the way he wanted to, Adriel found comfort in expressing his love, his pain and the passion he has for basketball and for life through his poetry. "Pen to Paper: A Transfer of Emotions" is the manifestation of Adriel's passion for life, love and basketball. In college and throughout his life, he was a shoulder to many of his family and friends' deepest and darkest secrets. Unable to tell others of the problems he faced and the struggles of people who had confided in him, he learned to put his pen to paper and a book was born. A deep look into a man's soul who so desperately wanted to heal himself and those who would seek his advice, Adriel began to search deep into his heart and soul to express those feelings for others. Pen to Paper is a book that will show you tears of joy, laughter and pain until the game is over.
PEN TO PAPER
A TRANSFER OF EMOTIONSBy ADRIEL T. DAVISAuthorHouse
Copyright © 2012 Adriel T. Davis
All right reserved.ISBN: 978-1-4520-3325-9Chapter One
This is Me
This is me
And if you looking at pics
And that is all you can see
You seeing a mirage
Because it ain't me
Judge me
Tell me you like me
Judge me till you hate me
But your comments will not make me
They won't break me
Cause this is me
Talk to me
Talk about me
Spread the hate
Save the date
Judge me as you may
It is your call if you plan to stay
I am more than the eye can see
So if you don't like
My advice
Let me be.
When the Smoke Clears
When the smoke clears, I would have overcome all my fears
I am sure I would have caused some to shed tears
But judge me not for my past, but for what I am doing now
Give me a chance, and you will see a change
Give me the lead, and I will lead us away
Away from the problems of the past
I am sure things will never be the same
That just means that things have a chance to be better than before
Escape away from your worries and let's be free.
Turn away the clouds
Bask in the joy of the sun
Run away and never look back
Just forward motions
To a new place
And as the smoke clears, all we see in site is each other.
Imperfection
I am sorry for what I have become
But I am not sorry for what it will make me.
I am not perfect and I will never be
I will only strive for perfection
Judge me not for where I was
Judge me by where I have been and where I am going
Perfection would make me less than human
My imperfection helps me become better than human
So if you are looking for imperfection
Search within me, but while searching you
will see how perfect life can be.
Just focus on the faith within your heart
And within your imperfections will lay your perfections
Up, Up and Away
I am going up, up and away
Stop trying to hate
Because this is not the place for me to stay
I done paid my dues
I have all the clues
And for all my life I have remained true.
So open your mind
Get out of sight
And keep hate
It aids me in my fight
So as I cruise through Life,
Doing this and doing that
I got another job for you
Keep watching as I make these moves
Keep asking me how I do what I do
And when I am at the top
And looking down from there
I still won't look down at you
Just will look down because you
Still there
So take this advance notice
And understand
That I will rest when I die
But for now I got to make moves
Like my life depended on it
This Canvas
When I started this canvas was blank
Just like my thoughts
Just like my heart
But as I sit here and write
I start to gain sight
Of what I used to be
What I want to be
I am just trying to cover
The thoughts
Of what I use to be
When I was missing the kissing
When I was there
When no one else was
I am not in a race
I am on a journey
Searching
Seeking
Learning
Growing
So as this canvas is filled with words
That turns into sentences
That leads to a paragraph
Which becomes a page
Which grows into a book
That will tell the stories
Of my life
Maybe of yours
Maybe it will make sense
Maybe it won't
But as these words fill
This Canvas
They also empty out my soul
On to
This Canvas
Somehow, I managed
Somehow, I managed to ruin it all
Somehow, I managed to let you go
Somehow, I managed to think about you even after I let go
Somehow, I managed to settle for self pity
Somehow, I managed to feel like a helpless kitty
Somehow, I managed to allow myself to get weak
Somehow, I got lost and it made me not want to sleep
Somehow, I managed to stop dreaming and only have nightmares
Somehow, I started living like I was scared
Somehow, I got trapped in my own self miseries
Somehow, I got to manage to get out
But one thing's for sure
I am the only one to blame
I had a way out
But I couldn't bare the shame
Of hurting another
So I hurt myself
I somehow sit here as a prisoner in my own home
In my own Mind
In my own Heart
Somehow, I will manage
Footsteps
I hear footsteps from my past
I been running for years
And now I am running out of gas
But it is my past
And that is where I wanted to leave it
What did I do wrong?
I wanted it to stay in the past so I can get past it
I wanted to be in the present, because it is a gift
I wanted to make a future, because there is so few
I see the footsteps of the past
And I left them there
But the imprint of the past is what I see
It has followed me
I kept going forward
And I didn't make the U turn
Because I felt like I hadn't reached my destination
But was my destiny to turn around
But then I would be reprinting my footsteps
So as I keep stepping forward
I am trying to step out of my past
And my past is stepping on me
How can you be caught in two places at one time?
How can your past outrun you?
As these footsteps approach me
The only way to avoid footsteps is
To not look back, and see only what is in front of you.
Learning
I am learning the hard way
It took a few times to get burned
But what is a cause without an effect
So yes the things that I have learned have affected me
But what you won't see, is how they have made me better
I have learned to work hard and quiet
I have learned to love without cause
I have learned to sometimes pause
Learning has taught me
Learning has caught me
And fought me
But it has allowed me to not give up
I am embracing it
I am facing it
I know I won't give up
Learning has helped me laugh and to cry
But in the end I am still learning
Learning from me, learning from you
Trying to learn how to shine
Without losing my mind
I know while learning
My time will come
To embrace the theory of learning
So as I sit back and learn
I will learn to enjoy life
Featherless Bird
Don't judge me because I don't have feathers
I still can fly, and I still like to sit on a limb and sing songs
I know it's wrong that I don't fit in
But again, now a days what does fitting in really mean
Let me go about without my feathers and be just as graceful
Let me soar the sky and if I feel the need leave me alone and let me cry
I am just like any other bird, I still breathe
I still fly; I still soar in the sky
I won't try and be like the other birds
Because they are who they are and I am what I am
So as my feathers don't exist
The pain of not having them does
So don't judge me based on my feathers
Judge me on being a bird
Because at the end of the day
I will be just as they are
I am
A Featherless Bird
This Dream
I almost died the other day,
But before my last breath.
I had a flashback.
I have seen the smile on my mom's face as I walked the stage.
I felt the pain, as you shed tears from the pain of love.
I have seen how you needed me when you lost a loved one.
I seen the joy in my brother's eye, when he heard I was moving near.
I have seen this dream of life being taken away.
Then I realized that it was not life being taken away,
But it was those moments of breathtaking,
They were the events that gave me life.
So This Dream, is not one of my last breath
It's about the moments that took my breath away.
So if it's my last breath, then I will keep This Dream.
Building Walls
I am building this photo and what I see is me,
and behind me is the sun setting on the beach
I am building this dream and in the dream I see me smiling,
me laughing and my heart complete
I am building this sense of hope, that one day I can see beyond my past
I am building this house so I can I fill it with
memories of you me and you
I am building these thoughts so I can think of where we should be
I am building these things for us
I am building these feelings so I can give them to you
I am building these walls to protect myself
from the pain that building, the other things bring
I'm No Crook
I walk around with my hands in my pocket, but I am no crook.
I have dealt so much in my life, I could write a book.
Looking over my past, you can think I am joke
But keep in mind I am a lot smarter then I look.
I am aware of my wrong that is why my poetry is like a song.
I write these lines, to apologize for the times.
So you ask me where my heart is and where are my emotions
I express them every day, I just don't show 'em
I walk around with a bulletproof heart,
Cause I avoid the pain before it starts.
I decided to take my dreams,
And make them a reality.
I walk around with my head to the sky,
You might wanna keep looking there
Cause that's where you will find me.
Some say I am scheming
Ask me, and I will say I am dreaming.
I am beyond the game.
Time to step up and put the haters to shame.
Pain
The pain in my heart has seeped into my soul.
I have sat around so long I have nothing else to hold.
Every day the pain only gets deeper as I think of you.
I know that hate is pain and pain is hate.
But in the midst of all the pain all I know is hate.
I want to move on, but the pain won't let me.
I want to stay, but the pain won't let me.
So I am stuck in a pool of pain with no one to save me.
So as this pain seeps into my soul.
I only have you to blame for the pain that has reached my soul.
The Rebirth
I had nothing, at First
I didn't even have the sound of my own breath
Day to day I was lonely
Until I saw a glimpse of you.
There was a sparkle in your eye
I thought I had lost all that feeling
But somehow you reached out and touched me and my heartfelt it
You were that Friend.
I couldn't hide the magic we shared
And all the issues of the past, were released from my torn heart
All the walls would suddenly disappeared
The Rebirth: My heart has found life again.
The day you came into my life
I would realize that I still had life within me.
That moment was the moment
Of The Rebirth: My heart has found life again.
Life through my Bloodshot Eyes
Life through my bloodshot eyes
Would scare you to death,
The pain, the passion, the love
And never a moment of rest
I want fun and games
But I want to treasure you like gold
Cuz I realize that you could mean the world to me
N my eyes I want to see well,
But mock my words when I say
My heart will either love you or hate you
Until my destiny comes to light
I will just look at life through my bloodshot eyes
Crazy Mixed Up World
In this world we have 2 ways to go!
That is up or down
In this world you have to be able to show!
That is to show what you done and what you worth
I think to myself why life is this way.
Why must we have to prove our way through life?
When we say that we have strife, through good and bad
That we have helped a friend when they are sad.
That should be enough, but it's not.
We must document what we do, cause if we don't its forgotten in the
blink of eye.
It's not treasured until we die
And it's lost when we lie.
Too much is put in and not enough is given back.
I want to be free and cut a little slack.
I don't want it cause I am black.
I want it cause I earned that right!
But it will not happen cause it's a crazy mixed up world.
Last Stone Unturned
I am the last man standing and all I got to say is that a battle is over.
I was at war and no one was on my side, so I had to watch my back.
I was on edge at all times, taking no prisoners.
Then I realized I killed the one I loved in the line of fire.
There was no guns, no knives, just the weapon of harsh words in the
heat of the moment and now I realize that the battle that I thought I
had won.
Was the battle I really lost ................ And I am the
LASTSTONEUNTURNED.
Now I am lying around waiting for my love to turn over that
LASTSTONEUNTURNED
Lost For Words
I am lost in my own world
I am trapped in a place where I am supposed to be safe
I am lost and confused
I have nowhere to go
I have no one to turn to
I have to make a change
When will this stop?
When will I be free?
When can my prayers be answered?
I am trapped in my own world
I have no way to escape
When does this feeling stop
When will I stop being lost for words?
New Light
This is a new year.
This is a new beginning.
This is a NEW LIGHT
The NEW LIGHT will SHINE.
The NEW LIGHT will bring me JOY.
The NEW LIGHT will be seen in my EYES.
This is a new year.
One without FEAR, PAIN, or SHAME.
This is a new beginning.
One that will put an end to the old
And the start of a BRIGHTER FUTURE.
This is a NEW LIGHT.
One that will SHINE WITHIN MY SOUL.
LET MY NEW LIGHT SHINE BRIGHT AS THE SUN!
When it's Gone
In a flash
It was there
In a flash
It was gone
The fame, the glory
The friends, the fans
At one point he was the Man
But just as the sun rise
He rose
But just as the sun falls
He fell
So enjoy the lights as they flash
Because one day the lights will become dim
And the only thing left will be
The sparkle in your eyes
That should never die
Because that is last shining light
In a room full of Darkness.
My First Step
One day, one step
One day I need to take a step
But the step was right there, yet too far
I think and thought
That if I miss this step
Will I fall?
I can't fail
Who can I ask or who can I tell
Only one thing to do
Either be the hero or the goat.
I have too much to lose
And I have lost so much
Oh my, what is that Touch
Is it what I think it is?
Could it be her?
Maybe it is, or maybe it's not.
One
Two
Three
I am taking the step
To allow myself to be free
I finally did it
I found Love
And it happened
When I took
My first step
Only God
When I was down.
Who was there for me?
Only God.
When I was lost in the world, without a friend
Who lifted my spirit?
Only God.
When I was in love, and I was not being loved back
Who was there for me?
Only God.
When life seemed to deal me nothing but blanks.
Who brought sunshine to my day?
Only God.
When I kneel and pray for things to get better.
Who always answers?
Only God.
When I have no friend, no one to love me.
Who can I turn to, to let me know he is there with me?
Only God.
Pleaze
Win dew wee, Stop this madnez.
Win dew wee, Realize that Life on Earth iz da Path to HEAVEN.
The path wee take, the roads wee make are all part of the game.
The struggle is only a test.
The hurdles must be run at your best.
Yes, wee can Rest.
Win you ask.
Win you get on your kneez and ask GOD,
to FORGIVE.... OH PLEAZE.
I no it's hard,
And wee all not always dealt the right Cards.
Just keep one thing in MIND
That GOD blesses all who are KIND.
Just get on dem kneez and just ask GOD "PLEAZE, PLEAZE"
Struggling
I am struggling to get loose
I am fighting for a new beginning
I want to start with a happy ending
An ending to start a new time
Sometime to be free
Sometime to be me
I am struggling to get that "gold"
That "star" to make my heart whole.
My only struggle is within me,
My hardest problem, I cannot see.
These days are "sunny"
And full of light
To get what I want, would be tight.
To make her happy,
For me to get the same. Love from the heart,
Should have no shame.
Survival
My mind and body, yearn to succeed
My soul is full of that need.
The need to be nothing but the best
Trying to outdo the rest.
What makes me unique is my DRIVE,
What DRIVE, the one that keeps me ALIVE.
I have suffered more than you think,
I am running right pass you every time you blink.
So beware, cause if you don't care
Then I'll be on top, while you sit down there and stare.
Tears of Rain
These drops of Rain
Have kept me Sane.
This world is wearing on my Brain.
I feel the Pain,
I know the shame.
Lost in the Game
Stuck in Fame.
Although you see the Rain,
Do you feel my Pain?
As the Rain falls, whom can I call?
Only one Answer and his name is GOD.
(Continues...)
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