Without a Map: A Memoir. This item is unavailable.Without a Map: A Memoir

"A brave writer of tumultuous beauty." --Entertainment Weekly
"Beautifully rendered." --Elle
"A poignant, unflinchingly assured memoir." --The Boston Globe

This "sobering portrayal" of a pregnant teen exiled from her New Hampshire community is "a testament to the importance of understanding and even forgiving the people who . . . have made us who we are" (O, The Oprah Magazine).

Meredith Hall's moving but unsentimental memoir begins in 1965, when she becomes pregnant at sixteen. Shunned by her insular New Hampshire community, she is then kicked out of the house by her mother. Her father and stepmother reluctantly take her in, hiding her before they finally banish her altogether. After giving her baby up for adoption, Hall wanders recklessly through the Middle East, where she survives by selling her possessions and finally her blood.

She returns to New England and stitches together a life that encircles her silenced and invisible grief. Her lost son finds her when he is twenty-one. Hall learns that he grew up in gritty poverty with an abusive father--in her own father's hometown. Their reunion is tender, turbulent, and ultimately redemptive. Hall's parents never ask for her forgiveness, yet as they age, she offers them her love.

What sets Without a Map apart is the way in which loss and betrayal evolve into compassion, and compassion into wisdom.

Meredith Hall's awards include a two-year literary grant from A Room of Her Own Foundation, a Pushcart Prize and Maine's Book of the Year award. Her work has appeared in The New York Times, Kenyon Review, The Paris Review, Five Points and many other journals and anthologies. Her debut novel, Beneficence, was published by David. R. Godine Publishing in 2020. Hall is Professor Emerita in the MFA writing program at the University of New Hampshire, and divides her time between Maine and California.