It is the spring of 1980, and Waynesville State University students Jeremy McCutchin and Rodney Blake have just spent two glorious weeks in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. They are returning to New York and to school when the unthinkable happens. The two best friends-one white and one black-are nearing the end of their prescribed 600-miles-per-day driving limit when they feel the new 1980 black convertible hit something on the dark stretch of county road. They investigate, see nothing, and decide the best course of action is to report the incident to the authorities. In this small town of 595 people, Jeremy and Rodney report the incident to Sheriff Relliford. He tells them there is probably nothing to worry about, but impounds their car for good measure. But the sheriff is mistaken. The boys are charged with vehicular homicide and must defend themselves in court. In this time of racial turmoil in the United States, Jeremy and Rodney fight for their freedom and come of age in a very difficult way.
The Gilded Web
By J. R. GloveriUniverse, Inc.
Copyright © 2011 J. R. Glover
All right reserved.ISBN: 978-1-4620-2153-6Contents
Chapter One The Event.............................1Chapter Two Circumstance..........................10Chapter Three Second Thoughts.....................24Chapter Four Relationships........................61Chapter Five Searchings...........................110Chapter Six A Call for Help.......................162Chapter Seven Quest of Truth......................193Chapter Eight Continuations.......................248
Chapter One
The Event
Life is full of truisms, such as "honesty is the best policy; the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence" and things of this sort. Life also consists of placates which make no logical sense like, "The trip back is always shorter than going," which is a vain attempt to appease one's sense of impatience. Jeremy was hoping that the latter would prove to be accurate in spite of what common sense dictates. After all, juniors in college should be rational, right?
But man ... I was tired—dead tired. And, right now the drive home was about as appealing as a mustard sandwich. Still I hoped and drove. The brand new black 1980 convertible roadster given to him as a graduation gift by his father, sped through the ink velvet night.
Jeremy was so preoccupied with his own musings, that he forgot about Rod in the seat next to me until he snored, or more like snorted. I knew that he was knocked out after driving over 300 hundred miles. What a pal! I don't think any two friends could be any closer than Rod and me. I didn't even think about his being black, although we did nothing to pretend that we weren't different. We just kind of accepted that as a given. Aren't all people different anyway? Jeremy smiled as he remembered that this was not always the case between them.
At 21 years of age, Jeremy was a rather ordinary looking guy with a rugged handsomeness about him. His heavy dark brown eyebrows were framed by a wrinkled brow and thick locks of sandy colored hair, bleached even lighter after two weeks of Florida sunshine. His thin and wiry six-foot frame was slightly slumped at the shoulders as he battled a little driving fatigue.
He had been at the wheel for over five hours and knew that pretty soon he would have to rest for a while. Jeremy is a rather easy-going person prone to quick laughter and mild-mannered ways. He knew that these laid-back characteristics, so natural to him, would soon be challenged in the dog-eat-dog world of investments on Wall Street following graduation. This warning had come from his dad, himself a well-respected and successful broker in upstate New York. The lines in his brow deepened ever so slightly with resentment at the thought of this. As much as he disliked the thought, he knew his father was probably right.
Different occupations often call for certain kinds of demeanor and personalities. He hated the thought of a professional "Game Face." Ministers should be cordial and smiling; school teachers, like surrogate parents; lawyers, trusting enough to even be lied to if necessary. All so phony. So artificial. He didn't relish his childhood ways being changed by a society which often lacks authenticity. Why can't people just be real? Be themselves? His dad was nicknamed "bulldog" on the Market, but at home he was as placid a person as you could find. A Jekyl and Hyde of sorts.
"Hey dude," a voice shattered through my thoughts.
"This ain't finals week, you know," Rod was saying.
"What's the serious look about?" Rod was awake.
"Aw, nothing really," Jeremy replied, "Just thinking about the rest of my life after school." Rod sat up straight for an instant, changed positions and relaxed again.
"Yeah, but don't let it depress you. You'll be okay," he said. "It's gonna be tough, though, meeting all of those middle-class expectations laid on you. Me? I'm the first person in my family who'd have a college degree. Man, I'm a celebrity in my neighborhood!" Jeremy smiled. Rod was good at helping me to keep things in perspective. Here I was troubled by the thought of an adult role, while my friend would face an uphill battle for the rest of his life overcoming the disadvantage of being black in a white culture. My concerns pale by comparison.
The boys lapsed again into the easy silence that comes when two people are truly comfortable with each other. In his own way, Rodney thought, Jeremy was as trapped as he was. While their situations were different, both would have something to prove after graduation.
Rodney was not always this open-minded. When he first enrolled at Waynesville State University three years ago as an engineering major, he brought with him some disillusionments and bitterness that a life of poverty instills. He had thought that all whites were blessed and all blacks were cursed. Even his high school counselor, Mrs. Vernor, encouraged him to attend a trade school or a vocational school because he had to take the ACT twice before passing. Man, I'll never forget her icy look and casual matter-of-fact advice. Now, he was a Junior in college!
At five feet nine and 185 pounds, Rod was built like the athlete he was. Barrel-chested and bronze, he was a striking figure. His short haircut was neatly cropped. After his freshman year in college, Rod had to give up football in favor of academics because he refused to opt for a less challenging degree. Since he wasn't on an athletic scholarship anyway, the decision was not that difficult. Since neither of his parents were college graduates, he was determined to give Mom and Dad something to rejoice about as well as to prove to himself that he could do it, in spite of Mrs. Vernor!
Strangely enough, the boys' friendship grew out of a fight they had in their second month of school. Having been made roommates in the dorm at Halverson Hall, the result of an intentional cross-racial dorm policy at the school, they were polar opposites.
Jeremy was raised in a bed chamber suburb with its insulated and elite community school system, while Rod came from an inner city school system replete with truancy and discipline problems. There were no blacks in Jeremy's hometown, so he had no experience relating to African Americans. All he knew of blacks was what he had heard, tales that were related by friends or by what he saw on television or read in the papers.
Unfortunately, what he saw and read in suburbia was largely biased and sensational types of news. Always something negative. You couldn't trust blacks as far as you could throw a Volkswagen! The unfortunate thing about this was that Jeremy had no other frame of reference by which to judge the trueness of falseness of these perceptions.
Rodney, on the other hand, lived in a poor black neighborhood in the inner city. Although he went to school with some white students, they were mostly poor inner-city whites who were bussed in as part of the longstanding desegregation plan for the city. These whites, however, were very different from Jeremy. In many ways, poor whites who go to school with blacks, are discriminated against themselves. So, in some cases there were similarities.
But like Rod once told one of his white classmates, "The difference is that you can go on to college, get an education, put on a suit, move on the other side of the tracks and Bang! You're in. Me? My color follows me wherever I go."
Away from school, however, black and rival white gangs fought continuously. One thing that Rod learned was that somebody had to always be on the bottom. When a poor white calls a black a "nigger," Rod was told that was their way of saying, "Yes, even though I'm poor, I'm still white." Rodney knew all about racism first hand. Jeremy was told that blacks were poor because they were not very intelligent and lacked motivation. Put these ingredients in the pot, turn on the fire, and the pot begins to boil a strange soup indeed! Still, Rodney thought then, he liked the whites in high school better than Jeremy's kind.
Several incidents happened that would change their lives and thinking forever. One such situation occurred in their room on a weekend after playing volleyball and basketball all day. Rod took off his watch and there was a light circle around his wrist where the watch had been. Jeremy poked fun.
"Man look at that," he laughed pointing to Rodney's wrist, "I didn't know you all could tan. I thought the sun just bounced off blacks' skin." Instantly, Rodney jumped on Jeremy. Caught by surprise, Jeremy was not quick enough to duck a hard right thrown by Rodney. His lip was busted and bleeding. Rodney was now ready to fight for his life, because Jeremy was taller than he was and s-t-r-o-n-g. He expected a furious onslaught and braced himself for the coming attack. It never came. Rod will never, ever, forget the puzzled look on Jeremy's face as he sat there and wiped at his mouth.
"What the hell did you hit me for? You've got about one minute to explain and it better be good," Jeremy shot at Rod, anger building by the second. "I don't know if I can take you," retorted Rod, "but nobody, including you, is gonna insult me or my people with racist slurs and remarks. Where do you get off, anyway?"
There was genuine confusion written all over Jeremy's face. Incredible as it seemed, Rod believed his roommate was sincere. "If I had called you a name out of place, like a coon or a nigger or something like that, I'd deserve to be hit. But I didn't call you or your people anything like that. I never believed half of that crap I grew up hearing," Jeremy continued, his voice quivering in anger.
Looking down at his classmate's bleeding lip, Rod realized that he was too quick on the trigger. Society had conditioned him to predictable responses of defensiveness. He felt bad after he realized that Jeremy's remark was probably a careless reflection of his childhood and was really said in jest. He went to the bathroom, wet a wash cloth and brought it back and handed it to Jeremy.
"Man, I thought it was a dig," he said apologetically. "When somebody says something derogatory about my race, they include my mom and dad as well. Jeremy, you can't just go around saying things like that. You could get hurt real bad. What if I had said that whites try to tan because their skin was sick looking. It's the same thing. You'd be insulted too. God made my skin just like he did yours. Skin is just skin."
"I never thought of it like that before," said Jeremy, "I guess it would make a difference. But don't be so damn defensive all the time. We ought to be able to joke together. Sometimes even if it is about our races as long as it is not meant to be demeaning." Rod hesitated a moment, pondering Jeremy's words. "Yeah, I think you're right. We ought to be able to be real. But, look! Remember our Language Arts course last semester about trigger words?"
Jeremy thought back. Rod was right. Some words carry with them implicit meanings that sometimes invoke emotional responses from the ones who hear them based upon their past experiences and background. "Patriotism" may be interpreted differently by blacks and whites, for instance. Very few blacks get goose bumps from hearing the "Star Spangled Banner" being played, but they nonetheless fight and die in combat to defend what it represents.
"It's a crazy mixed-up world, huh," said Jeremy. "Here we are in 1980, near the end of the 20th Century, with technology enough to build space stations and to explore the galaxy, yet you and I who live in the same room and go to the same classes live in the middle ages as people." Rod nodded his head in agreement.
"Yeah, it's messed up all right."
Both boys eyeballed each other as if for the first time. "Rod, I spoke out of ignorance, and I'm sorry," Jeremy said, extending his hand. "Naw, man," replied Rod, "I had no business hitting you. You didn't lay a hand on me. I apologize," he said.
The two shook hands. Black man, white man—Americans—learning to live together in a land that was native to both. What a shame! Yet, there is always some good that can be found in any bad situation, for Jeremy and Rod began in the smallest of ways to become friends.
The hour was getting late as the car hurled itself down the dark country road. The night was like as velvet blanket sprinkled with an occasional cluster of stars like sparkling diamonds. Only at long intervals did the glare of oncoming headlights interrupt the serene silence of the night as they passed by on the other side of the highway.
The boys had earlier decided that 600 miles a day between them would be about as much as they would push themselves. They were fast approaching this limit.
"Hey Rod," Jeremy said, cutting into the silence. "We're close to our time limit. The trip indicator almost reads 600 miles. Check the map and see where we are. We'll stop at the next town." Rod retrieved the map from the glove compartment and turned on the map light. After some quick calculations, he determined that they should be approaching the Georgia and Tennessee state line. They agreed to stop at the next town, get a late meal and a hotel room. They would leave early the next day after getting the car checked out.
"You know that Ft. Lauderdale was my first trip south," Rod remarked to Jeremy. "Well, I told you you'd love it. We've gone down there for years now when my folks vacationed. Let's go back for a few days next year after graduation. Chances are we won't be seeing much of each other after that."
"I heard that," retorted Rod, "Chicago and Buffalo aren't exactly next door to each other."
The boys began to laugh and exchange tales about the past two weeks. They certainly had enjoyed themselves immensely, and had even run into some other kids from Waynesville U. All in all, it was a most memorable trip. "You know, it's too bad that more of my people don't get to do things like this. Can you imagine me going back to Chicago and talking to the brothers about Fort Lauderdale?!" Rod finished. They laughed, yet Jeremy understood all too well.
"One day it might happen, Rod. We have to believe that," he replied. "Yeah, what is life anyway without hope," said Rod. Just at that instant they passed a road sign. The next town was 12 miles ahead, and they noticed that the gas gauge was getting low. "Looks like we'll be just in time," Rod countered.
Several minutes later, they came to the county line and in the distance they could see a few lights scattered on the hillside. "Sure isn't Buffalo," Jeremy noticed, "Our campus is almost that big." Rod expressed the desire to stop at a bigger city, saying he was not crazy about being in a small southern town. But the next big city was just too far away and they were too low on gas. Anyway,one night was no big deal.
"Man, look at that," Jeremy said, peering back momentarily, "Yeah, I saw it," Rod exclaimed, "population 595." Just then an object flashed in front of the speeding car and there was an audible thump.
"Oh, hell," cried Jeremy, "Rod! I think we hit something." Rod strained to see. "What was it? I only saw a flash." By the time Jeremy was able to stop the car, they had travelled several hundred feet from the point of impact. Nervously the boys sat in the car, stunned and afraid. What if it was a pedestrian? What if they had killed someone? Maybe it was just an animal of some kind, or just their imaginations running wild. Perhaps it was fatigue. They sat in panic-stricken silence.
"Let's check the car," suggested Rod, "if we really did hit something, we will soon find out." Unbuckling their seat belts, the boys opened the doors and climbed out. The pitch blackness enveloped them. The only sounds were those of crickets and locusts harmonizing out of tune and rhythm.
"Geez," exclaimed Jeremy, "I can't see a thing. Rod get the flashlight out of the glove compartment." Reaching through the open window, Rod opened the glove compartment, retrieved the flashlight and returned to the front of the car. "We shouldn't have pushed ourselves so hard," Jeremy was muttering, "we just shouldn't have." Rod turned on the flashlight and the beam cut through the velvet darkness like a knife. It splashed onto the front of the car. Sure enough, on the driver's front fender was a large dent. And there was blood!
(Continues...)
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