The First Thing and the Last

In the middle of a horrific night, Katherine Stuart barely escapes being murdered by her abusive husband in the kitchen of their suburban Boston home. In the aftermath of utter loss and devastation, Katherine is sought out by Lucy Dudley, an elderly woman living on a family farm in the Northeast Kingdom of Vermont, who reads about Katherine in the news and is drawn to her by a closely guarded history of her own. Katherine, unable to bear the accusing eyes of her family, accepts Lucy's invitation to come to Vermont, setting in motion a deepening relationship between the two women that frames a universal struggle to heal and reclaim what severe trauma takes from people's lives. The First Thing and the Last is an inspiring, heartbreaking story of the resilience of the human spirit.

This first novel, a story of healing and redemption in the aftermath of domestic violence, was recognized by Publisher’s Weekly as a notable debut work of fiction and praised for its "lyrical prose, sympathetic characters and an unwavering sense of hope and compassion that make for a moving, engaging read.” It was also an Oprah's Choice book.

This beautiful, brave, and liberating book is a triumph of the spirit. Engrossing and exquisitely written, it shines with rare courage and a tender, life-saving wisdom that comes only through facing the darkness we suffer or inflict on others. It is a marvelous story whose characters I am glad to have in my life.

Joanna Macy
Author, World as Lover, World as Self

Allan Johnson's illumination of the mind of a woman recovering from horrific abuse and loss is miraculous, carried by a story that is both gripping and inspiring. It is a stunning achievement.

Jean Kilbourne
Creator of the award-winning film series, Killing Us Softly

Allan Johnson's writing is moving, insightful, and deeply human. He takes us inside painful lives with courageous truth-telling, yet at the same time takes us inside of characters who can heal and thrive. This is a novel that rings true, and that we need urgently to take into our hearts.

Lundy Bancroft
Author, Why Does He Do That?

The First Thing and the Last portrays an extraordinary woman who is brutalized - but the abuse becomes her sorrow and not her identity in Allan Johnson's complex, masterful and exacting understanding of such a woman's life. His ability and willingness to see so deeply, to portray a woman and her story so profoundly, takes our breath away. Welcome this extraordinary and most original novelist to the ranks of American literature.

Deena Metzger
Poet, novelist, and author of Writing For Your Life

ISBN: 978-1-935514-41-1

Allan G. Johnson is a nonfiction author, novelist, sociologist, public speaker, and workshop presenter who has devoted most of his working life to understanding the human condition, especially in relation to issues of social justice rooted in gender, race, and social class. He has spoken at more than 200 universities, colleges, corporations, and other organizations in 39 states. Allan G. Johnson began his work on men’s violence against women in 1977 as a Rape Crisis Service volunteer. He has authored research, testified before legislative committees, consulted with national and state organizations, and served on the board of the Connecticut Coalition against Domestic Violence.

Johnson's nonfiction books include The Gender Knot: Unraveling Our Patriarchal Legacy and Privilege, Power, and Difference. His work has been translated into several languages and excerpted in numerous anthologies. His second novel, Nothing Left to Lose, the story of an American family in crisis during the Vietnam War, was published in 2011.

Allan's approach to social justice is based on the idea that unraveling the knot of privilege begins with getting clear about what privilege really is, about what it's got to do with each of us, and about how everyone can see themselves as part of the process of change toward something better. Based on more than thirty years of work, he charts a course organized around three questions:

• What are we participating in and how are we choosing to participate in it?
• How do typical ways of thinking about privilege blind us to what's going on?
• What can we do to make a difference?

His social justice work is based on a deeply held belief that systems of privilege and the injustice and unnecessary suffering that result are not inevitable features of human life, and that the choices each of us make matter more than we can ever know. He offers a practical, compassionate, and accessible guide to understanding where we are and how we got here and how we can join together in the search for a way out.

Allan is available for presentations and workshops related to issues of social inequality, privilege, and oppression.