Even though her grandmother has since passed on, Dawn does credit her grandmother with the inspiration for this book and her zest and love for life and all that it has to offer.

Diary of a Poetic Mind

Reflections of Life and LoveBy Dawn A. Campbell

Trafford Publishing

Copyright © 2009 Dawn A. Campbell
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4251-8096-6

Contents

Mama..............................................................5Inspirational Quote...............................................7Living a Meagre Existence.........................................8Love Gone Astray..................................................9Pain..............................................................11The Divorce.......................................................12The Eyes Have It..................................................14Trials And Tribulation............................................15Unwedded Bliss....................................................17Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People...........................19Inspirational Quote...............................................21A Celebration of Love.............................................22Chameleon-Deceive the Deceiver....................................24Communication.....................................................26Crazy Love........................................................27Deeper and Deeper.................................................28Keep on Smiling...................................................29Night Magic.......................................................30Passion of the Music..............................................31The Magic of Love.................................................32The Shadow........................................................33Inspirational Quote...............................................34A Broken Down Woman...............................................35A Tragic Life.....................................................36Childish Remains..................................................37Deadly Bullets....................................................38Death Becomes Him.................................................40Dying For The Cause...............................................41Dying Without Just Cause..........................................42Gone Too Soon.....................................................43Inspirational Quote...............................................44Don't Block Your Blessings........................................45Eternal Damnation.................................................47Giving Thanks.....................................................50Growing In Gods Grace.............................................51I Shall Rise......................................................52It's All In The Name..............................................54Just A Walk With Thee.............................................56Praising Him......................................................57Rise Above It.....................................................59The Sacred Cup....................................................61Worshipping Him...................................................62Woman Of God......................................................63Patience In The Meantime..........................................64A Prayer Of A Thirsty Soul........................................65Grace And Mercy...................................................67David's Dance.....................................................69Inspirational Quote...............................................71A Childs Hunger...................................................72Convicted.........................................................73Hero..............................................................74New Born..........................................................75Paying Tribute....................................................76Persecuted........................................................78Stranger In A Promise Land........................................80The Ghost Of Mississippi Burning..................................82The Rum Bar.......................................................83War...............................................................84Words.............................................................85Wine-The Spirit Of Life...........................................86The Darker Brother................................................88A World Gone Wrong................................................89An Unjust World...................................................90Black And Proud...................................................93Fight For Your Rights.............................................95Freedom Train.....................................................97Generational Curse................................................98Life..............................................................99Words Left Unsaid.................................................101Rhythm Of A Dance.................................................103Determination.....................................................104Part 6: Believe...................................................105

Chapter One

Inspirational Quote Be gracious to me Lord. For to you I cry all day long. Make glad the soul of your servant, For to you, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, And abundant in loving kindness to all who call upon you. Psalms 86:3-5 Falling in and out of love, is not and easy feat. For some it is quite easy to pick yourself up and start all over again. Unfortunately for some, it is not that easy. Too much time is spent blaming one an- other, and not enough time saying I'm sorry, realizing that you are only human, and as humans we tend to make mistakes. Instead of spending time wallowing in self pity, spend time getting to know yourself. This means knowing who you are and what you want out of life. This way when it is not true love, then you can realize it and be confident enough to move on. Dawn A. Campbell Living a Meagre Existence What kind of world do we live in, If we keep getting up everyday and argue and fight with one another. What kind of world do we live in, With so much racial tension, Fighting and arguing about the colour of ones skin and the creed of one's kin. Why can't we all just get along. We all come from one maker. We walk the same walk, Talk the same talk, We even bleed the same blood. Can a man change his ways, Even though he posses the power to choose his own destiny. Why does such bad blood exist. In a world rot with degradation, pain and suffering, Why can't we all just get along. Accept the faith of what life has dealt us and move on. Learn to deal with it, And work towards creating your own destiny, Since you already have the key. The key to controlling and operating your very own powerful weapon, Your mind. Use it, Learn from it, And learn to control it, In order for it to work properly and effectively for you. Dawn A. Campbell Love Gone Astray In a world full of pain and suffering, How can we find the perseverance to press on. How can we continue on knowing that I am in love with you, And you continue to love another. How can I get you to notice me, You seeing only me, Me seeing you, While you have eyes for someone else. Why have you forsaken me. Why have you turned your back on me. Once bitten, Twice shy was the old adage, Now it's once bitten, Maybe I should give him another chance. How many chances do you give, How many heartache do you have to suffer before the realization hits you. How long will you continue, Prolonging a relationship that is going nowhere. A relationship that has ended by a party of one, Not two. It use to be you and me, Not you and she. Now it's just me. Me with my back pressed against the wall, Wondering , Pondering, What have I done to deserve this. Why me and not someone else. Is it you, Or me. Then again will it be me or someone else. The answer is clear, Written on the wall, Etched in stone You have already chosen, Made your decision. It's certainly not me. Love lost never to be found, Hoping to be had, Not today, But maybe someday. Dawn A. Campbell Pain Where does the hurt go, Where does the pain go, When there is love lost, Between a mother and a daughter. My how time flies, When there is no consolation of a love. To hold, To capture the essence of love lost, Stolen, Taken away before it had a chance to develop. When do you learn to trust, To believe in the wondrous powers of a mothers love. To have, To hold, To let go of a love never received, But yearning to have. Dawn A. Campbell The Divorce Why do you refuse to give me the one thing that means so much to me, The ultimate D word, The divorce. As the relationship sours, As we drift apart into different directions, All I want from you to me is a divorce. No sense in hoping, Wishing on a love that never was, Maybe on your part, But certainly not on mine. Through the lies, The deception on your part, The only conceivable thing to do, From you to me is to give me the divorce. No sense in turning back the hands of time. No sense in wishing anything more than what it really is. Why is it so difficult for you to commit to the divorce. Why are you refusing to sign. Lies and deception your strong forte. To be deceived by the deceiver is not an easy thing to accept, But you must in order to move on. Do I have to pay for it like everything else? I guess I must, If I aim to achieve ultimate freedom from you. What does not kills you makes you stronger. Strong enough to have the patience and perseverance to wait on the plans that the heavenly father has in store for you. When you rise, He shall go down. What goes up must come down. When he is on his down ward spiral, You shall be lifted up. God's ultimate plan for you is to prosper you, Give you hope and a bright future. Love for him absolutely not. Divorce from him absolutely yes. Dawn A. Campbell The Eyes Have It Each time I look into those dark relenting eyes, I am reminded of a love never had, But hoping desperately to find. Each time I look in your eyes, I see the possibility of my one true love, The one who will love me unconditionally, The way I want and need to be loved. Each time I look into your eyes, I see a shadow of a love, My one true love that I have searched hard to find, With never ending failure. As I look into your eyes, And you in mine, What do we see, But each other. Two separate but distinct worlds colliding together, Hoping to find that special love in each other. Looking into your eyes, I wonder if I am capable of loving, Or can I be taught to love again. If I continue looking into your eyes, Will I find out that it's a reality and not a dream, Not a misconception of two lost souls looking for love, And not finding it in each other. Dawn A. Campbell

Trials and Tribulation

What to do? What to do indeed. What do you do after a love has soured, Leaving you angry and discontent. What do you do? You try to pick up the pieces, But you just can't seem to pick fast enough, Cause everything seems to be crumbling around you. The walls are caving in, And only you alone know what to do, But you don't, Cause you are with child and cannot foresee giving up the child, Or taking the life of another. What do you do? You cry, You get angry and call each other names. You act out how you feel, But that still does not gather a response. Solutions to the problem comes, But not without a price. Answers are not cheap. Answers, What are they? A mere thought or words to soothe a worried or troubled soul. Somehow there is just no comfort, No solace for a withering mind. There is no comfort to relieve all the pain and suffering that has been done to this withered soul. Talk is cheap. The pain keeps on hurting. There is always a fee involved, Whether going to the doctors or visiting a friend, There is a substantial price to be paid when grieving the loss of a love. Will she loose it, Will she retain it. Only she knows, Or will she ever know. You tell me, Tell me, What's the answer.

Dawn A. Campbell

Unwedded Bliss

You walk down the isle towards what you believe to be your eternal life. The words I do is uttered in a moment of love and lust towards a future, Yearning for but yet to achieve. Till death do you part, Your new slogan towards a blissful life.

How you utter those words joyfully, Yet years down the road you take them for granted.

Where did the love go, Was it love or lust. Was it like or dislike.

Your white dress now marred with the tears running down your cheeks, Stunned beyond repair.

Loving you a distant memory, An ill taste in your mouth. How you yearn to go back to the way things were, Before you fell in and out of love, Trying to salvage a love lost, Yet to regain. How could you lie to me, How could you string me on like a puppet, Allowing me to believe that, You I, We are, Really in love.

How do you move on from the betrayal, How do you pick up the pieces and move on.

Lies, Deception, To be deceived, Not seeing the chameleon for who and what he really is.

Hope, Love and faith, A living testament to who you are, And what has gotten you this far.

Hope towards a new life, Loving yourself and who you have become. Faith in the eternal father in all and what he has helped you deal with. Learning to live a faithful life, A blissful life, Loving who you are and what you have become.

Dawn A. Campbell

Why Do Bad Things Happen To Good People

In life, We are faced with unforeseen circumstances, That we have no control over.

We are treated a certain way, Looked upon a certain way, Taken for granted, And worse of all, Abused beyond certain control. Abuse not often seen with the human eye, Since there is no scar left behind. All that's left is heavy burdens and crosses to bear.

We are all faced with difficult times, But never in a million years did you imagine that it would ever get so bad.

The crosses are becoming taller and the load is getting heavier and heavier.

When will it ever end, Will it ever stop. Your favourite prayer, Now a sance. Dear God, Why me! Why me! What have I ever done to deserve this. Why do bad things happen to good people. Why do I have to suffer such a silent death.

The pressure is so overwhelming. Why me and not someone else. Why me indeed. The only things I can ask, Is why do bad things happen to good people.

Dawn A. Campbell

Chapter Two

Inspirational Quote

"A new command I give you; love one another As I have loved you, so you must love one another." John 13:34

The magic and spirit of love is something that you have to nurture, take care of and water on a constant and daily basis. Constantly showing interest and putting interest into the relationship, you will be surprised how quickly it will grow and blossom in a flower. Take the time to effectively communicate with one another, loving and respecting one another and you will see the relationship flourish into something lasting, exciting and enticing for years to come.

Dawn A. Campbell

A Celebration of Love

Let's celebrate the union of two soul mates united together, Divided they will not fall. A single unit, Tied together by a circular band, Mumbling, Uttering the words I do, Until death do they part.

Let's celebrate the union of an elegant couple. One in love with name brands, The other loving the brand of the name, Adoring and loving his mate. A vibrant couple, Living a wonderful life, A fabulous life, A blessed life together.

Let's give a toast of good cheer, To the couple of the year, Loving life, Living life, Being very much in love with each other.

Let's give a toast to a sanctified union, A concreted union made for two. Made by man, Developed by God, Loving them, Serving them and taking care of them to the very end.

Blessed are those who walk in the shadow of the almighty, They will live a long and prosperous life.

Dawn A. Campbell

Chameleon Deceive the Deceiver

Beautiful you are to me. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. One persons good, Is another persons bad. What is good to me, May not be to you.

How beautiful are you, Depends on the individual. To look at another with deceptive eyes, Is to look upon the face of a deceiver.

Like a chameleon, They come in all shapes, Sizes and color. To create a story,

Believable by all, To not let known the true purpose of the mission. Believable but true, I have been deceived by you.

Feeling hurt, Feeling pain, At the situation I have found myself in not knowing where to turn, where to go. I have fallen deep into his deceptive trap.

Lying, Scheming,

To achieve your own material gain. I have fought a good fight, Went to war, And have lost the battle.

No more tears will I shed. No more blood will I bleed. I have seen that side of you, Unseen by most human.

Your agenda is now known, Your case now spoken,

Pleading your case for all to hear, Hoping to see the results of your material gain.

Love spawn, Had, But lost. Spurn to turn the tide, Towards the next victim. I have lost now, But just remember who laughs last, Laughs the best. When my rewards have come, Yours have fallen. Fallen into the inevitable abyss of the deceptive trap.

Dawn A. Campbell

Communication

Communication, Open to discuss, Fleeing words, Yearning to burst forth from within. Words spoken by many, Never amounting to anything. Motivating, Uplifting, Inspiring, Never allowed to blossom, To flourished, Yearning to break free. To communicate, To listen, To reflect on words spoken, Expressed by one or more, In solitude or in a group. To communicate is to act upon words, Being enlightened by the masses by a sedentary thought. Being clear, Being free to be you. Words spoken, Acted upon, To give thought upon spoken words, Thoughts left unsaid.

Dawn A. Campbell

Crazy Love

What kind of love affair are we having. Is it faith or destiny that has brought us together, Or is it just crazy love.

How can we continue this affair, When I am not available, And you are available to everyone you meet.

How can we allow this crazy love to continue. You with your boyish ways and charming personality, And I with the love of another.

How can this love go on. How can you and I allow it to continue. To continue, We risk loosing everything, Including our love.

However how strong, Or how good it is, We must risk loosing it, Otherwise we might end up loosing ourselves and the ones we love.

You give me, Love, Love, Love, Crazy love. Crazy, But not madly deeply in love with you.

Dawn A. Campbell

Deeper and Deeper

Deeper and Deeper as I slip into a trance, I find myself entranced by your wonderful vision.

Deeper and Deeper as I fall in love with you, And you with me, Thoughts of you become embedded in my mind. My body wrapped up in your soul.

As I discover you, You and I have become one, Forming a comfortable union. A union unstoppable by mere human contact, Human envy and or greed.

Deeper and Deeper, I am living a blissful life, Falling deeper and deeper in love with you.

Dawn A. Campbell

Keep on Smiling

When life throws you a curve, Nothing seems to be going right, Keep on smiling.

When grave misfortune keeps coming your way, When it seems like the world is caving in all around you, Don't fret, Don't despair, Just keep on smiling.

Behind every cloud is a silver lining. Smile and the whole world smiles with you. Laugh and the whole world laughs with you.

When frustration starts to set in on a great day, Have faith, Keep smiling, Cause sooner or later, The clouds will open up, Sending good fortune your way.

When your smiling, Keep on smiling, So that the whole world can smile back at you in return.

Dawn A. Campbell

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