The First Magnificent Summer - Hardcover

Toalson, R.L.

Hardcover

ISBN 10: 1665925493 ISBN 13: 9781665925495

Publisher: Aladdin, 2023

Synopsis

Judy Blume meets Barbara Dee in this tender and empowering middle grade novel told in journal entries and poetry about a young writer on the verge of becoming a woman whose summer with her estranged father doesn’t turn out the way she’d hoped.

Twelve-year-old Victoria Reeves is all set for her “First Magnificent Summer with Dad,” even though it’s been more than two years since she last saw him. She’s ready to impress him with her wit, her maturity, and her smarts—at least until he shows up for the long road trip to Ohio with his new family, The Replacements, in tow.

But that’s not the only unpleasant surprise in store for Victoria. There are some smaller disappointments, like being forced to eat bologna even though it’s her least favorite food in the world. And then there’s having to sleep outside in a tent while The Replacements rest comfortably inside the family RV. But the worst thing Victoria grapples with is when she begins to suspect that part of the reason Dad always treats her as “less than” is for one simple reason: she’s female.

As Victoria captures every moment of her less than magnificent summer in her journal, she discovers that the odds are stacked against her in the contest-no-one-knows-is-a-contest: Not only does her wit begin to crumble around Dad’s multiple shaming jabs, but she gets her first period. And when Dad does the worst thing yet, she realizes she has a decision to make: will she let a man define her?

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About the Author

R.L. Toalson grew up running wild through corn rows and cow-grazing fields and recording true and wildly exaggerated false tales to entertain her friends, family members, and anyone who would listen. She still runs (literally) wild through the streets of her city and spends most of her days recording true (if a little exaggerated) and false tales to entertain anyone who will listen. She lives in San Antonio, Texas, with her one brilliant husband, six delightful children, and two arrogant cats. She's the author of The Colors of the Rain, which won the Arnold Adoff Poetry Honor Award for New Voices in 2020; The Woods, which received a starred review from Booklist; and the highly acclaimed The First Magnificent Summer. Visit her at RachelToalson.com.

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July 15, 7:39 p.m.

July 15, 7:39 p.m.

That clock on Memaw’s wall must have magnets made for my eyes, because I couldn’t stop looking at the swirling black hands and Roman numeral notches. Six o’clock. Six thirty. Seven o’clock.

Two hours since Mom dropped us off. Two and a half. Three.

More than enough time. She was supposed to call when she got home, so… why hadn’t she called?

My chest burned like the grass fire Jack accidentally started in Memaw’s backyard last summer, and rubbing it didn’t make it feel any less fiery. (We managed to get the grass fire out before Mom and Memaw got home, thank goodness. But the soles of our shoes were never the same after that.) My leg vibrated under the table, unusual for me. I am a Stillness Queen. I can be still as stagnant water, as a hammock on a windless day, as the suffocating air every time Coach Finley makes us run to the T (my least favorite thing to do when school’s in session).

Must be my nerves. Or maybe the quiet at the table. Or all the thoughts piling up around me.

I’m not supposed to open my journal at supper, but tonight I did, just to have a place for all the nervous energy to go.

“You don’t want your spaghetti?” Memaw nodded toward my bowl, which I hadn’t really touched. Another thing that’s unlike me: not eating Memaw’s spaghetti. It’s the perfect blend of salt and tang, better even than Mom’s homemade sauce. Mom says Memaw salts everything to death. I guess I like everything salted to death, then.

I didn’t answer Memaw, but she kept right on talking, like maybe she was as nervous as I was. Am I nervous? I haven’t reached a definitive conclusion yet, but I think yes, maybe I am, yeah, probably.

“Nerves, is it?” Memaw glanced at Jack. His brown eyes studied the table. His mud-colored hair curled around his ears like it does every summer. Mom doesn’t waste money on haircuts when we’re on break. I know why that’s important, but I have to admit, it makes Jack look a little like a shaggy dog.

Maggie pushed her orange bowl forward, and the bottom of it scraped the wood in a way that made me wince. (A nails on chalkboard kind of sound.) “I finished mine,” she said.

“Want some more?” Memaw said. Her eyes gleamed. I think Memaw gets a lot of joy out of feeding people. Or maybe it’s just making people happy in any way she can. Mom says she spoils us, coming to visit with bags full of kettle-cooked chips and cream horns and new crossword puzzles for Jack and composition books for me and coloring books for Maggie. I just think she’s the best grandma ever. (And I have four of them.)

Maggie nodded. “Yes please?” Her words arched up like she was asking a question.

“Maybe Tori will let you have hers.” Memaw eyed me with that one raised eyebrow, her dark eyes blinking questions.

I shook my head and stuffed a forkful of the salty spaghetti in my mouth. “Not sharing,” I said around the noodles. The salt was divine. A burst of intense flavor hit my tongue, and it made me wonder why I’d waited so long to eat.

Jack stuffed a bite in his mouth too.

Memaw said, “You bring all your notebooks with you, Tori?”

Do I ever go anywhere without my notebooks? I didn’t ask this question out loud because (1) it’s not exactly polite, and (2) Memaw already knows the answer. She’s the biggest supporter of my budding writing career, and without her I might not have volumes and volumes of my own stories and diaries. (I prefer to call them journals; people—Jack and Maggie—like to steal juicy diaries, but no one’s interested in boring journals.)

I also didn’t tell Memaw that I’ve decided to go by Victoria this summer. I’ve been Tori for twelve years of my life, and I’m ready for a change. A more grown-up name. Something to prove I’m not a little girl anymore. I’m still in a training bra, while all my friends have become women and moved up to the regular bra section, but at least I will have a new name. I mean, it’s an old name given twelve years ago, but it’s new for me. And grown-up. And womanly.

It’s not a conversation for the supper table, so I let it go.

“All two of them,” I said instead.

Memaw blinked at me like she’d forgotten her question. I do this all the time—I get tangled in my head and let a question sit way too long without an answer, and then the person forgets what they even asked. I was about to remind her she’d asked if I’d brought all my journals when she said, “Only two?” Her black eyebrows shot up even farther. “That enough for a whole thirty days?” She seemed to be saying something more underneath the words. Something like Thirty days with your father? Thirty days away from home? Thirty days of no routines and unpredictability and anxiety-inducing newness?

I try exceptionally hard to hide my weirdness from the world. (Mom says I’m quirky, not weird, but she’s my mom. She’s supposed to think I’m ordinary. Brilliant, but ordinary.) But Memaw is like one of those thermometers you wish you didn’t have in Texas, the ones that you can’t help but notice as you’re walking out the gym door for another run to the stop sign a whole sweaty one-point-six miles away from the school, the ones that practically shout, “It’s one hundred one degrees out here, get back inside, you moron!”

She always sees right through me to the temperature inside. Sometimes it’s kind of a relief. It’s exhausting putting on a show all the time. Pretending you’re perfectly fine when you’re not.

Sometimes, though, it’s a great big pain.

“I brought some books to read too.” My voice sounded a little squeaky, like even I didn’t believe I’d brought enough simple pleasures to distract me from less-than-ideal circumstances.

Okay, so I like routine and predictability and things that are old, not things that are new. And maybe I have a teensy little problem with anxiety that’s hardly worth mentioning.

I shrugged, because, well, words are hard, and so is the truth.

Memaw stood up and disappeared into her room. Jack shot me a Look, but I couldn’t decode it. I can’t read many of Jack’s Looks anymore, not like I used to. Middle school changed things for us in a weird and sometimes annoying way, but I don’t like to think about that. So I don’t. I let him have his football friends and band buddies and lunchroom chewing chums and leave him well enough alone, like he told me to do on my first day of sixth grade, when he was a big seventh grader on campus and I mistakenly thought that didn’t mean anything special.

Memaw reappeared and plopped down a pile of composition books. “That enough?” she said. I spread them out. Two purple ones (Memaw’s favorite color), one turquoise one (my favorite color), and three yellow ones (no one’s favorite color but bright and hopeful all the same). Six notebooks for thirty days, not counting the two I brought.

“Yeah. Sure,” I said. “Thanks.”

I wondered, briefly, how she’d found the composition books so fast. Her room is a minefield of messy stacks and future Christmas presents and powder spilled on bathroom counters. I don’t go in there often. Clutter ignites my anxiety like little sisters ignite annoyance.

I’m sorry. That was mean. Maggie doesn’t deserve that… usually.

“Give you something to do while you’re visiting your dad,” Memaw said, folding herself back in her chair.

Memaw even looks like the perfect grandma. She’s short and lumpy, with curly black-and-white hair that frames her face and neck in a halo. Her gray-brown tortoiseshell glasses are the kind that darken in the sunlight so you can’t see her eyes. (I know the names of all the frame colors and styles of glasses, which is how I know Memaw’s are tortoiseshell, because I spent two years trying to convince Mom to at least get me new glasses if she wasn’t going to get me contacts. My old frames are held together with superglue, and one earpiece falls off every time I so much as adjust their position on my nose. Glasses are expensive, though, which is probably why I finally wore her down just in time for this summer, and now I am the proud owner of brand-new soft contacts. Clear ones. Mom said no to colored contacts, even though I tried to tell her that’s all anyone wears anymore. She raised an eyebrow and said, “You really think I’m gonna let you get lenses that make you look like a cat?” Like I would do that. I just wanted blue ones. But Mom shook her head to even that. “Blue’s not all it’s cracked up to be,” she said. She doesn’t know, though. Her eyes are the same brown as mine, so how would she?)

Enough with the random brain detour, let’s go back to the table and Memaw’s “Give you something to do while you’re visiting your dad.”

The way she said, “your dad,” its squeezed-up, clenched-tight sound, made it obvious to any but the most oblivious observer (Maggie is one of those. No, that’s mean. Maggie’s just… blissfully unaware. She has an excuse—she’s nine) that Memaw does not like Dad. If my memory can be believed (and of course it can), she never has. She’s never come out and said it, but you can see that kind of thing on the face, hear it in the voice, watch it in the stiffness of a back, if you’re the right kind of nosy. Which I am.

I nodded again but didn’t say anything. The grandfather clock in the living room chimed its half-hour song. Seven thirty. In exactly twelve hours, he would be here.

My throat tightened as hard as Memaw’s eyes.

Good thing there’s Tales from the Crypt, Memaw’s favorite show, to distract me. If what’s happening tomorrow doesn’t make it impossible to sleep, creepy skeleton heads jumping out of coffins will.

(Memaw would be in so much trouble if Mom knew she let us watch Tales from the Crypt. It’s not exactly a kid’s show—bloody and gory and too spooky for imaginations like mine. And it’s probably in the top ten reasons I still sleep with a night-light. Mom barely approved Sabrina, the Teenage Witch, and I had to practically beg her to let me watch Friends. But Memaw’s house is a house of freedom and horror.)

Edition details

• Publisher: Aladdin
• Publication date: 2023
• Language: English
• ISBN 10: 1665925493
• ISBN 13: 9781665925495
• Binding: Hardcover
• Number of pages: 352