Into the Exit and Test of Time: In My Strive to Survive From My Deathbed (True Story) - Softcover

Melendez, Julian

Softcover

ISBN 10: 150495923X ISBN 13: 9781504959230

Publisher: AuthorHouse, 2016

Synopsis

Go Into the exit and test of time and see what the end is like for those who stare at death in it's face. A Double Stage (4) liver and kidney failure survivor shares his true story on the fight for his life, in the hopes of helping others in their moments of need. To show them that they are not alone in their pain and suffering. That the hope for more TIME and to slow down TIME is at the asking. Learn what he did and what it took to extend his TWO WEEK DEATH SENTENCE according to Doctors and others," by (7) MONTHS, just in time to receive his double Transplant Miracles with just a day or so to live.

This book was designed to be of some service to others when it comes to the support of their loved ones' illnesses and suffering in their time of need. I hope that because of our time of need and the support that we experience and went through, it would somehow help other families get through their moments of need.

All proceeds on my end will go to a non-profit organization that has been designed and established for the sole purpose of helping others help themselves in their medical support needs and cost in order to help ease their pain. For this time I'm grateful and happy to give back as I was blessed and saved by the help of others.

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The author both his mind and heart would have discovered that life is more—infinitely more—than eating, drinking, breathing, wearing clothes, having fun, taking up room; that the cradle is not its beginning and the grave is not the end; that he is akin to the centuries past and joined to the centuries to come; that the fire that burns within is borrowed from the altar of eternal being; that the desires and hopes and longings that keep him ever restless are born of an awareness that the infinitudes are his by right of inheritance; that the stream on which he is being carried along takes its rise beyond the boundary of time and empties into some sea of infinite expanse; that the depths of life are too deep to be filled with gold, its longings are too insistent to be hushed by the trifles of time, and its expanse is too vast to be filled by the slogan Have Fun. /A.A.M

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Into the Exit and Test of Time

In My Strive to Survive From My Deathbed (True Story)

By Julian Melendez

AuthorHouse

Copyright © 2016 Julio Melendez
All rights reserved.

ISBN: 978-1-5049-5923-0

Contents

Dedication, v, 
Acknowledgement, vii, 
Introduction, xiii, 
My Concerns, 1, 
Author's Foreword, 3, 
Segment 1 Cause and Effect, 5, 
Segment 2 My Strive to Survive, 8, 
Segment 3 The Value of Time, 11, 
Segment 4 My Thought's!!!!!!!, 15, 
Segment 5 Habit and Attitude, 17, 
Segment 6 Faith/Beliefs and Hope, 24, 
Segment 7 Self-Discovery/Self-Development, 29, 
Segment 8 My Health, 52, 
Segment 9 Need More Time, 56, 
Segment 10 Don't Give Up, 67, 
Segment 11 My Choices of Thought!!!!!!!, 79, 
Segment 12 Creativity!!!!!!!, 84, 
Segment 13 Moments I Remember!!!!!!!, 90, 
Segment 14 My Survival!!!!!!!, 109, 
Segment 15 Pray for Life, 117, 
Segment 16 Our Suffering and Pain, 124, 
Segment 17 My Moments to Always Remember, 137, 
Segment 18 Refocusing, 145, 
Segment 19 My Willpower, 147, 
Segment 20 My Wife Jenny Moment of Thoughts on December 24, 2015, 152, 
Segment 21 My Final Thoughts on my Painful Recovery', 155, 
Things Do Not Just Happen, 157, 

CHAPTER 1

SEGMENT 1

CAUSE AND EFFECT

When it came to the business of living Wrote Alfred M" Said life is not a smooth paved highway, on which one travels from birth until death.

It is uphill, downhill, plateaus, Valleys, Chuck holes, Booby traps, Like an obstacle course. The road of life can only reveal itself as it is traveled.

We must climb the mountain peaks, cross a number of abysses, and charms, on our journey through life.

The philosophy of this philosopher has helped me fight back from my near death experience. I was able to reapply that philosophy to my self as I remembered that "AS I THINK "I AM".

Mans thoughts decides his destiny. Wrote Alfred M, As a man thinketh – "SO IS HE". Emerson said, "Man is what he thinks," Jesus Crist Said, "As a man thinketh in his heart so is he."

Markus Aurelius said," Our life is what our thoughts make it. So I refused to except defeat as a reality, as I was in denial of my health condition ever since my first incident in 2009.

When I first had learned of my health challenges that nearly ended my existence, and my life, that's when I found out I was diabetic.

I was then informed as I suspected that my liver started to show signs of it going bad and with my age of 49 then, and my health and body not being in tip, top, shape, I new I had some work to do.

I drew concern towards my health and I started to notice the way my body started to feel.

My faith and belief through the power of prayer, and love from family, friends, the wisdom from my Supreme higher power. And with some of my old literature that I had come across as a young man, seeking answers to questions about life and how to best live it.

I've come to remember and realize that "NO ONE EVER IS DEFEATED, UNTIL DEFEAT HAS BEEN ACCEPTED AS A REALITY, IN MY MIND SET THAT WAS THE SEED I NEEDED TO PLANT AGAIN And AGAIN and I did. So I will do my very best to reveal the events of my experience based on my memory of my events. "THIS IS MY STORY"

My book is written with this sole purpose of helping others help themselves and should be read as a reference book as a reminder when it comes to the business of living a happy life and for consolation for those in need.

"I refused to except defeat as a reality. No one is ever defeated until defeat has been excepted as a reality."

CHAPTER 2

SEGMENT 2

MY STRIVE TO SURVIVE...................

In my strive to survive I refused to except all my doctors opinion on how much time I had left to live.

Many doctors from several hospitals tried to decide my fate. I was forced to learn for the sake of my survival to stay focus on my will to live regardless of my time left according to others.

I was forced to reach deep down and utilize what ever energy I had left. All that was constantly on my mind was that "I NEEDED MORE TIME ".

TIME GOES, YOU SAY? AH NO! TIME STAYS, WE GO. Each moment is precious — use it! Time is our greatest asset. IF LIFE HAS TAUGHT ME ANYTHING, IT HAS TAUGHT ME TO LIVE IN THE PRESENT!

ONLY ONE PERSON IN A THOUSAND KNOWS THE TRICK OF REALLY LIVING IN THE PRESENT.

This is one of the key points for abundant dynamic living. Most of us spend fifty minutes an hour living in the past with regrets for lost joys, or shame for things badly done; OR in the future which we either long for or dread.

Our days are numbered." Teach us to number our days that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.'

In other words help us to realize that we have only so many heartbeats and we must be wise in how we use our time. I've learned that "TIME IS THE ONLY SURE TEST OF ANYTHING.

It is not only the severest critic of all so I've learned, it is the only accurate critic.

You cannot judge the value of this or that on the spur of the moment, for only time can determined that. TIME WILL HONOR YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE.

The year of our birth is marked in the calendar, but THE CALENDAR FAILS TO TELL US HOW MANY YEARS WE HAVE TRULY LIVED.

One really lives in terms of desire and passion, joy and sorrow, vision and prayer. DESIDE what you want from your time.

Plan carefully, on paper, each day or at least each week, how you will use your time. Put time in where it counts most. Delegate well. Concentrate on the job at hand. Respect time.

"I refused to except defeat as a reality. No one is ever defeated until defeat has been excepted as a reality."

CHAPTER 3

SEGMENT 3

THE VALUE OF TIME

TIME INDEED IS A SACRED GIFT, AND EACH DAY IS A LITTLE LIFE.

The story of my life, the art of survival has become a way of life for me. Dating back since my early days of my real estate years, My career started for me in the early 1980s. At the age of 23 years old was my continuation of my survival skills of surviving the streets of New York City.

Ever Since back then In New York City, BRONX NY, Since then by trial and error I've learned to prosper and grow in my new line of work.

So for over 30 years through adversity and the challenge of keeping up with the cost of living has made me a stronger person.

Through trial and error along with the determination of not giving up has helped me thru it. when it came down to earning a living of hard earned commission pay only, it has taught me to strive hard in life and not give up or look back.

OLD HABITS ARE HARD TO BREAK, However I learned through study that habits can be replaced when need too. I've learned not to accepted defeat as a reality through out my life of survival, and now my health depends on my belief and faith. Still today and until my clock of time runs out I must stay focus.

With my higher power's help, He has always been in control of my life and always has been ever since my birth through, "FAITH AND BELIEF."

We are all striving for prosperity, and adversity is the last thing we want.

I'm writing this book in hope that it will some how serve as a helping tool for all those families that has found themselves in the same situation or similar situations like my family and I have found our selves in.

And for all those families who have gone through the pain and suffering of having a sick love one to worry about or to care for, my heart goes out to all of you and I hope my story will some how help to ease your pain.

I hope to bring you some kind of hope, faith, and relief in order to best deal with your circumstances at hand.

The paradox is that great men are produced and developed under severe testing and enduring great trials, as gold is tried by fire, Hard times are pretty sure to drive us to GOD.

Give us easy times and we drift to the devil," Wrote Alfred Montapert.

I GIVE SPECIAL THANKS FROM MY HEART to my Wife Jenny who stood by me 110%, and became determined to keep it all together with lots of Prayer to support her cause which was to help save my life, and for that I will always be grateful.

And special thanks to a good friend and great doctor, Oswald Williams, MD. A simple, good, decent human being with a huge heart, who has been my primary since my early signs, the one who I begged to help save my life Thank you God Bless.

And All the medical team of angels at Shands Hospital university of Florida in Gainesville Florida as well as the others in all ten hospitals in my three years of agony that showed some compassion with out any judgment and took great care of me in my time of need," THANK YOU ALL FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART"!!!!!!!.

And for all those who played a major part in saving my life, THANK YOU!!!!!. And to All those Wonderful Doctors, nurses, technician's and coordinators that participated in saving my life THANK YOU!!!!!!!.

ALSO TO my friends and family that stood by me in the time of need and for their support THANK YOU!!!!!!!. AND TO MY HIGHER POWER IN WHICH IS THE CAUSE OF MY EXISTENCE WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN AN IMPORTANT PART OF MY LIFE, MY FRIEND AND SAVIOR, MY HIGHER POWER, AND THE MAIN REASON WHY IM STILL HERE, THANK YOU!!!!!!

"I refused to except defeat as a reality. No one is ever defeated until defeat has been excepted as a reality."

CHAPTER 4

SEGMENT 4

MY THOUGHT'S!!!!!!!

My thoughts of my situation concerning my health, has become a mayor concern in my life. As the clock of time kept disappearing.

It all started in 2009 when I became ill. My thoughts was always about how and what can I do to reverse the situation at hand.

My determination of staying level headed and not to panic, even though I was in god hands, it became a challenge when it concerned my liver.

In situations like this we tend to panic. Once i become ill it somehow tends to play with my thoughts. I started to think about what to do next and who to talk to about it.

The mind is a very complex organ and needs to be controlled when it comes to the thought process. I've learned through study that," AS I THINK. I AM". AND AS YOU THINK-SO YOU ARE." Wrote Alfred Montapert.

I had to learn to try to maintain control of my thoughts and not panic. As time went by, it became more challenging as more events of changes kept occurring every day as my health conditions and my liver organ starting to decline in time.

It became worse as the days went by. Each moments became more aware of its existence. At one point I found myself living day to day, And now I find my self living moment to moment.

As I came to realize that we really only live moment to moment, because one moment you are here the next your not.

I've come to realize that one moment you are alive and the next moment your not. So I learn to make every moment count.

"I refused to except defeat as a reality. No one is ever defeated until defeat has been excepted as a reality."

CHAPTER 5

SEGMENT 5 HABIT AND ATTITUDE

I've learned to and still learning every day to do what ever it takes to improve my situation no matter the suffering and pain at the time.

That feeling of one moment I'm here and the next moment I'm not has become a way of my conscious life. Based on my state of mind at the time and my will to live became stronger and stronger as the days go by.

I kept thinking of all the things still yet to finish before I die. What sets a man apart from others forms of animal life? It is the ability to think, To reason, to improve his lot. Wrote" Alfred Montapert."

Life is not determined by outward acts or circumstances. Each of us creates his own life by his thoughts. Marcus Aurelius said, "Our life is what our thoughts make it." Emerson said," Man is what he thinks."

Jesus Christ said, As a man thinketh in his heart so is he." A single thought will neither make nor break a life, BUT A HABIT OF A THOUGHT WILL.

We cannot think defeat and be victorious. A fixed habit of faith is the cure for a worried, Troubled heart.

We can do more for or against ourselves than any outside force. One of the things that helped me through out my years was to learn to break things down in my head.

No matter how difficult or confusing things may seem, all it took for me was to slow my thoughts down to a almost still movement and look at it at a much simpler level.

The practice of slowing down my thoughts and eliminating the panic has become a forceful habit that I had to deliberately practice in my mind and thoughts.

I know it seams easier said than done, however its doable under many circumstances. I NEEDED TO CREATE THE PROPER MIND SET EVERYDAY.

This was a constant thought of adjustments that was in process constantly in my mind and the pain and dysfunction of my body was my daily reminder whether I was home, at work, or in a hospital bed.

In the period of 2011-2012 were the times that I went through the roughest time of daily mental adjustments.

It was difficult to adjust because I had to practice not getting upset every time that adversity would strike. Just as most of us usually complains about little things or big things when its best to look at it in a different mind set like "LOOK AT IT IN A POSITIVE STATE OF MIND. ITS AN OPPORTUNITY TO GROW STRONGER.

Remember, "GOOD ALWAYS PRODUCES GOOD." Its based on the natural law of "LIKE PRODUCES LIKE", it will help the situation somehow, even if you can't not see it or understand it at that moment, depending on your approach of how you take the adversity or discomfort or pain procedure you may have to Indore, it can be used to hurt you more than help depending on the energy you feed into it of how you see it "POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE".

So I knew that I had to stay focus on doing the best I can without allowing myself to get aggravated. THOUGHTS ARE POWERFULL TOOLS," We could be our best or worst enemy depending on our thoughts of action if not careful.

So Now I'm very careful of what I would allow to except as food for thought as we say, food that we allow to enter in our mind and heart as truth determines our faith.

I deliberately Look for worthy information or beliefs that may come my way as a learning tool from others like mentors and materials of good information preferably positive feedback of knowledge of self improvement.

What I feed into my mind and alloy to except as truth will harvest eventually in heart. When I think happy thoughts I become more happy, when I think or focus on the negative it never made me feel or improved my happiness within. At times Positive thinking was all I had and the power of prayer with faith and belief, family, friends is all I had to work with no matter how hard it was at the time.

By staying focus on what I needed to do, it would some how help my situation at that moment. Faith and trust is all I had when it came to the painful procedures that needed to be done at the time of my care.

So I know that thoughts are powerful tools because we become what we think about. I knew I was bound to follow my thoughts of staying alive and to fight as hard to hang on.

That's why it is very important business, when we come to the selecting of our thoughts that we are going to allow to dominate our life. MY CONSTANT THOUGHT IS AND WAS TO STAY ALIVE AS LONG AS I CAN.

Everyday was a new day and a new challenge. People are probably more careless with their thoughts than anything else just as I was all my life as I have learned for my self and still learning through trial and error.

I do not allow anyone who visit us at our home to dwell upon the negative. If the subject is controversial wed rather they discussed it elsewhere.

It does not help anything anyway so why waist valuable time. I always thought to my self, time and time again, it not easy but doable. All it takes is a little practice every day in order to form a habit. Just like anything else.

WHEN IT COMES TO THE SUBJECT ON HABIT, EVERYTHING WE DO IS BASE ON OUR HABITS. So I learned as time flew by me to remember that and Now as time has gone by, I've made many mistakes in my life through bad habit like drinking and allowing bad choices to become a part of me that ended up in controlling my life. And if not careful it could have tear me apart in my struggle of my survival.

The chains of habit are generally too small to be felt, until they are too strong to be broken.

WE BECOME WHAT WE THINK ABOUT, is the one thing I needed to be constantly aware of at all times in order to better control my destiny in life. One slip of a moment of thought back in the 1980 and 1990 up to 2008 was my term of punishment inflicted from me to me was the cause that I allowed to control my thoughts.

My choice to form a habit to drink alcohol has changed my life dramatically. Whether great change or not it happened to me. Drinking was a bad choice along with other things in my life.

How ever time became my teacher. I remember back when I was admitted to a fine transplant hospital on 168 Broad way new york.

So back in 2013 at the hospital I was told by the head doctor of the liver team that I only had TWO WEEKS TO LIVE. She acted as if she was god because of her PhD doctors degree and claimed that she was the one who decides who lives or dies.

Those were her words that came out of her mouth with no compassion what so ever.

She had the nerve to push her opinion on us in a negative way with no compassion what so ever.

It broke my heart when she said those words to my wife as jenny started to cry, At that moment I became stronger at will to prove her wrong.

So when she gave me only two weeks to live, at the moment I was so confident about my recovery through my faith of a miracle waiting to happen that I looked at her as if she was crazy. AND TO TOP IT OFF, she said very bluntly that she is the one who decides whether I wood live or die. THOSE WERE HER WORDS, to me and my wife.

So as I saw my wife sobbing, it gave me more strength to see this thru. I cant Waite to go back to revisit her to show her in person how her theory worked out. My hope is that heartless people like that should not be allowed to cause any heartache for those family's in need.

"I refused to except defeat as a reality. No one is ever defeated until defeat has been excepted as a reality."

(Continues...)

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Edition details

• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Publication date: 2016
• Language: English
• ISBN 10: 150495923X
• ISBN 13: 9781504959230
• Binding: Paperback
• Number of pages: 226