Synopsis:
Written in radiant prose and with stunning psychological acuity, award-winning author Sarah Cornwell's What I Had Before I Had You is a deeply poignant story that captures the joys and sorrows of growing up and learning to let go.Olivia Reed was fifteen when she left her hometown of Ocean Vista on the Jersey Shore. Two decades later, divorced and unstrung, she returns with her teenage daughter, Carrie, and nine-year-old son, Daniel, recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Distracted by thoughts of the past, Olivia fails to notice when Daniel disappears from her side. Her frantic search for him sparks memories of the summer of 1987, when she exploded out of the cocoon of her mother's fierce, smothering love and into a sudden, full-throttle adolescence, complete with dangerous new friends, first love, and a rebellion so intense that it utterly recharted the course of her life.Olivia's mother, Myla, was a practicing psychic whose powers waxed and waned along with her mercurial moods. Myla raised Olivia to be a guarded child, and also to believe in the ever-present infant ghosts of her twin sisters, whom Myla took care of as if they were alive--diapers, baby food, an empty nursery kept like a shrine. At fifteen, Olivia saw her sisters for the first time, not as ghostly infants but as teenagers on the beach. But when Myla denied her vision, Olivia set out to learn the truth--a journey that led to shattering discoveries about herself and her family.Sarah Cornwell seamlessly weaves together the past and the present in this riveting debut novel, as she examines the relationships between mothers and daughters, and the powerful forces of loss, family history, and magical thinking.
Review:
"The subtler workings of past trauma on present-day lives underscore Sarah Cornwell's psychological page-turner."--Vogue.com
"This debut novel blew me away with the beauty of its language and the honesty of its narrator. . . . The reality of living with a parent with mental illness, and how it impacts a child, is heartbreakingly beautiful in Cornwell's capable hands."--Jodi Picoult Lists Her Favorite Reads of 2014, Amazon
[A] bewitching first novel. . . . In chapters alternating between the puzzling, pressurized present and eerily predictive past, Cornwell weaves the novel s double narrative with the deft touch of a magician and the sure hand of a confident writer to watch. --"Elle""
Twining Olivia s teenage past with her grown-up present, Cornwell tells a sensitive, clear-eyed, and ever so slightly supernatural story of a family shaped by mental illness. --"Boston Globe""
An incandescent debut by turns thrilling and meditative; part coming of age novel, part exploration of the fragility and complexity of love and family. Sarah Cornwell is a writer to be celebrated and watched. --Philipp Meyer, author of "The Son""
Captivating. . . . Depth of insight, dreamy prose, and an engrossing storyline mark this wonderful debut. --"Publishers Weekly" (starred review)"
This debut novel blew me away with the beauty of its language and the honesty of its narrator. . . . The reality of living with a parent with mental illness, and how it impacts a child, is heartbreakingly beautiful in Cornwell s capable hands. --Jodi Picoult Lists Her Favorite Reads of 2014, Amazon"
Sarah Cornwell has a brilliant eye for the telling detail, and a wonderfully original way of embodying family history. I was captivated by her memorable characters and the perfectly paced revelations of their surprising relationships. --Andrea Barrett, author of "Archangel" and "The Voyage of the Narwhal""
This is a remarkable debut by an award-winning short story writer; Cornwell s psychological study of the stormy relationships in one particular family is engrossing and insightful. --"Library Journal""
Sarah Cornwell s first novel is as unnerving and authoritative as Hilary Mantel s "Beyond Black." This is a beautifully written book, bold and wounding. Read it and you will never look at the Jersey Shore in quite the same way again. --James Magnuson, author of "Famous Writers I Have Known""
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